Hemlocked Heart

Some days I’m a robot
Calculating in a void
Welding myself to the spot,
Heart and mind unemployed,
Never better, never worse
A charming, faceless android
Triumphant clarity my curse
The same strategy deployed
Be gone, be gone, within,
Without a second to avoid

Yes… no…no.

I’ll face the world as my kin
Self assured and overjoyed
And when my gears begin to sing
And when my eyes are rose oiled
I’ll see you, sharp and learning
And remember. I am breathing
Not only in my ridged fear
But in my useless dreaming

No…no

Detach, detach, but all abound
Are waves of endless feelings
Hnff, click, pop, clank, ahh
I’m back to dull, a robot
Through and through
Another day, another way
Of trying to make it true.